really not a short period of time I can say...
the longest relationship till now...
from being very far away from each other
to me deciding to take the step to move over to study here
initially, we were separated by the place i am stayin ... which is in hostel... except weekends...
then there is the issue of my hostel room
then after one more sem of suffering in there... i moved to live in with u...
come to think of it... it is rather fast from being so far then so close...
maybe it is because i cannot bare seeing u always constantly chatting with others..
maybe it's because my jealousy is stronger than others
maybe it's because i am just SO NOT confident with myself...
and i start thinking if only i am better...
if only i could have the will power to change the things i wan to change so hard....
I got jealous when u were working with her
I got jealous when you told me she was thin and beautiful
I got jealous when u time was occupied on somewhere else
I got jealous when u kept talking about her
I got jealous when u were always with her.. and u would look for her when i am not beside u... and even times when i 'm beside u
I got jealous when u told her the 3 words tat i find it has to come out of sincerity
I got jealous when you had to always think about involving her in everything we do
I got jealous when you agreed to bring her go for that event
I got jealous when you kept meeting her in class
I got jealous when you minded so much about her
I got jealous when you told me that she is cute and beautiful
I got jealous when you kept looking for her altho she seldom looks for u
I got jealous when you always asked me to leave when she comes
I got jealous when you decided not to do class work with her
I got jealous when you read and laugh on the thing she posted on your wall and i couldnt c a thing
I got jealous when you chatted almost everyday with the same person for a period of time
I got jealous when you only concentrated on ur chats and ignored me
I got jealous when you suddenly told me you when to find her
I got jealous when you kept viewing the same girl's profile over and over again
I got jealous when you kept looking for the same girl over and over again
I got jealous when you kept sms with the same person and deleted all your messages so I cant c a thing
I got jealous when you laughed from you heart but the person who made you laugh wasnt me
I got jealous when you chatted with her like there is no end
I got jealous when you only bothered talking to her and forgotten about me
I got jealous when you smiled at her sweetly
...
I got jealous..................................... I got disappointed
cant I be less jealous?
or is this natural reaction?
I just dont know... I am worried that one day you will slip away
i try so hard to grip om to ur love...
but i am scared you will be irritated ... and will love me less in turn..
I really love you...
