Sensitive

Last night's issue really wasnt a fun issue...
makes me think about all the times when u were sensitive to wad i did...
u were pissed off... but i always try to make up for it...

but why is it when i am a bit sensitive to things... u cant bare with it for a while ???
sigh...

keep saying that i am XIAO QI
wad about u??? u are the same at times wad...
i bare with things...
so many things i bare with u... i give u the space... i push back my things just to fulfill u..
things i dont really like... i just overlook it... and some even learn to like it cz of u..
do u really realise???

sigh...
last nite, mayb i am at fault... but i really wanted to listen to the song..
the least you could do is care to tell me u are tired bah...
just close up everything like this...
when i am tired i also try to wait for u... even when u wanna play games..
no matter how tired i will also try to help u scratch ... i will alwyas try to stay up to make sure u are sleeping soundly before i sleep...
sigh... dont think u ever realised either...

sigh....
then just now.. come out from toilet straight away go talk to adeline... totally ignored my existance...
how would i feel???
have u ever thought about it??? have i ever done that to u??? ask urself???
sigh...
mayb only once when i was on the phone on serious matters
then u came and disturb... i got a bit pissed off.. that's all...

talking about it...
yea... i hate her smile ... i hate her very very very much... and i mean it...
u smile happily everytime u c her... YEA u REALLY DO...
mayb she is the right one...
i hate the look when she looks at me... as if i am the one in between u and her...
like wadever... i dont really wanna know wad is happening..

mayb things are all better when out of sight out of mind...
sigh...

totally depressed....
where's my mask????